This is the first weekend that I have my daughter after my ex-wife and daughter moved out. I was really nervous about having her, I know I’m more than capable of taking care of her and loving her the way she deserves. Its just been really difficult staying in a almost empty home with nothing but that silent noise and a lot of memories. I would constantly be reminded of the divorce when I walked past my daughters empty bed room.
Recently the urge to just pack up the few bits and pieces that I have left and just disappear has been getting stronger and stronger. It was the strongest this afternoon just before I picked up Kaitlyn. After spending the last bit of the afternoon with her, eating supper with her, bathing her and putting her to bed, I realise that running away from that would never be an option. Even If I only get to spend time with her every second weekend it is really worth every second of it. Having her makes this empty home seem full of live again.
I look forward to the rest of the weekend with Kaitlyn 
06/09/2008 at 2:58 am Permalink
That must be really tough. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are feeling … many different things I’m sure. You are very brave! And I guess time is the best medicine. Keep positive